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2am, serious thots n up to my neck in a quicksand of work, responsibilities, expectations. Nd to stay afloat n alive sumhow… How? Mates tell me motivation is the key so y is it I jus cant seem to figure out wat the bloody hell motivates me, need that special sumthing to push me rite? But wat? Malaysia Boleh spirit? riiiiiiteeee… lol!

Hello again friends, been awhile since i put in sum meaningful writing in here, today sumthin in d papers caught my attention. All this is written in the spur of the moment so I hope u wud understand wat Im trying to say here. Enjoy!

This is an all too familiar topic or incident going on in this country of ours (Malaysia)  and it annoys me that malays think they kno it all when it comes to islam… I myself am no expert on islam but these are purely my opinion on sum of the stuff going on in our society. Im not trying to show that Im a devout muslim, make no mistake abt that, its all abt being reasonable.

Being a muslim is first and foremost regardless of race… You are a muslim above anything else. Sadly, its not widely practiced. We malays want others to embrace islam but when they do we make their life hell, is it any wonder others look at us with suspicion and distrust?

Time n again I hear n read stories abt how other races are forced to accept n practice malay culture should they decide to convert into muslims either by marriage or free will, on how they can be condemned for visiting their own families during festive seasons n in sum cases not even allowed to attend the funeral of their family or relatives who did not embrace islam as they did. To me that is just NOT RIGHT, in fact its outright stupid n narrow minded! Since when does Islam condone or preach such behaviour? As long as a muslim (born or convert) makes sure that his iman or faith is intact and rejects what is against islam, why shud anybody bother? Wats wrong wit other races celebrating their cultural heritage, I mean as long as it doesnt involve praying to other gods n doing things that are against Islam then isnt it perfectly alrite? Visiting non-muslim family members during festive seasons to celebrate with them is not a sin, going to funerals of a deceased relative or friend who is not a muslim is not a sin so who are u so called Malay muslims to prevent them doing such a thing and what authority do you have when In fact Islam encourages friendship n mixing with people of other races and religions  and to live together in peace and harmony! The malays celebrate western style new year more than they do the muslim new year… Nobody seems to make such a big fuss out of that.

If my memory serves me correctly, our Prophet Muhammad s.a.w had an uncle who did not embrace islam and yet he did not shun or distance himself from his uncle.When the muslims were being persecuted by the pagan arabs didnt Prophet Muhammad s.a.w seek refuge in a kingdom ruled by a christian king? didnt muslims, christians and jews live in peace alongside eachother at one point in history? And how is it that islamic knowledge and principles managed to lift europe out of its dark ages? How all that was possible is one thing that us muslims shud ask ourselves… They surely didnt do it by being pricks that Im sure of or else the other religions wouldnt hv accepted being ruled by muslims.

Look at whats going on in the middle east, shiites and sunnis killing eachother as both are claiming to be the ‘right’ kind of islam. While they r busy killing one another, the west r sitting back laughing at how stupids muslims are! The west dnt see them as shiites or sunni but just muslims. Though when it comes to sects it might be different but the priciple is the same for us in Msia, why should there be malay muslims, chinese muslims, indian muslims when its obvious regardless of the race we are just that….. muslims!

The most recent flashpoint is the issue of chinese muslims wanting a mosque of their own. It was in the papers today and it was interesting to see that the government turnd down the application. The excuse was it might segregate muslims which is true to an extent but then again the indians have a mosque of their own… So what is the right decision here? If i were to go for friday prayers at a chinese or indian mosque n the sermon was conducted in mandarin or indian then it is obvious i wudnt understand wat is being said… but since all Malaysians know how to speak malay wouldnt it segregate the muslim ummah further to have mosques which serves only a particular race? Though frm a different point of view letting the chinese have their own mosque is also a good thing as it makes things easier for a chinese to embrace and understand islam amongst the familiar faces of their very own cultural background and language. That would be the whole point to let them have a mosque of their own, to assist them in having a deeper understanding of Islam  and surely that is a good thing.

Too often we hear Malays bitching abt how the chinese control the economy n stuff like that. Another advantage of helping build a strong muslim-chinese community is in business matters. Its acknowledged that the chinese are superior n dynamic in business matters than the malays… so wouldnt the malays be better off tapping/learning the business skills of the chinese through a muslim network where the atmosphere would be less tense seeing that its all abt muslims helping muslims. After all if we still have to be suspicious of other races eventhough they are fellow muslims than we have a helluva big problem.

I had the opportunity to perform friday prayers at the MMU mosque in cyberjaya recently and was pleased to hear a mixed sermon of malay and english where the latter was to cater for foreign students who dnt have a good command of malay so they too wouldnt feel left out… THAT is the way to do things. We want muslims to be brought under one banner and that is islam as islam does not differentiate or discriminate btwn race or colour of skin. Doesnt this mean to test our skills at learning to compromise in the name of islam instead of compromising in the name of race?

This is a difficult n touchy subject no doubt abt tht but the mistake most ppl make I believe is seeing others too much in terms of race… When u die, race will not get u anywhere n at that point only religion will matter. So y do we still bother abt dominating n discriminating others of different race? It might be a naive point of view to some but I stand my ground n strongly believe its a reasonable one nonetheless. In my last blog titled click, the principles of mutual respect, love and honesty can be applied to help solve this problem but only if evrybody is willing… fact is not many ppl are. Tim Kai? heheh

Please let me hear ur thoughts abt this, wud love to get sum feedback/comments frm y’all. n thanks for taking d time to read this bit of writing…. Cheers all!

At last a guy has taken the time to
write this all down… I got this from Ani who posted it on friendster.
Finally , the guys’ side of the story.
( I must admit, it’s pretty good.)
We always hear " the rules " From the
female side.

Now here are the rules from the male
side. These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all
numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet
seat.You’re a big girl. If it’s up,
put it down.We need it up, you need it
down.You don’t hear us complaining
about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It’s like the full
moon or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport.And no, we
are never going to think of it that
way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.Let us be
clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!Strong hints
do not work!Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable
answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if
you want help solving it. That’s what
we do.Sympathy is what your
girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months
is a Problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is
inadmissible in an argument. In fact,
all comments become null and void
after 7Days.

1. If you won’t dress like the
Victoria ’s Secret girls, don’t Expect
us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you’re fat, You
probably are.Don’t ask us.

1. If something we said can be
interpreted two ways and one of the
ways makes you sad or angry, we meant
the other one

1. You can either ask us to do
something.Or tell us how you want it
done.Not both.If you already know best
how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say
whatever you have to say during
commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need
directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like
Windows default
settings.Peach, for example, is a
fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a
fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be
scratched.We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you
say "nothing," We will act like
nothing’s wrong. We know you are
lying, but it is just not worth the
hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don’t
want an answer to,Expect an answer you
don’t want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere,
absolutely anything you wear is fine.
Really .

1. Don’t ask us what we’re thinking
about unless you are prepared to
discuss such topics as SEX, CARS, the
shotgun formation, or BASKETBALL.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the
couch tonight;
But did you know men really don’t mind
that? It’s likecamping.

Pass this to as many men as you can -
to give them a laugh.

Pass this to as many women as you can -
to give them a bigger laugh

If I die tonight
What would I do on my last day
I know i’ll wake early in the morning
Crack of dawn’s last ray

I dedicate this one
To my friend Warwin
1982-2003
You’ll always be missed
And also everybody who lost
Family members, friends
We miss you
Y’all will always be remembered

I really does make u think abt our own mortality huh?

Hello again ppl, Its 1am n I jus cant sleep… figured I’d drop by n write down stuff dats been going on in my life recently.

Got back frm my kl trip last friday n was greeted back home in kk by the sight of 2 dead bodies lying on the road, blood n brains evrywhere. Apparently it was 2 soldiers rushing back to camp but ended up slamming their bike into a lamp post at high speed (according to witnesses), both died on the spot. Wasnt pretty at all. Some welcome home sight huh? I think it was in the papers y’day…

That aside, my trip was loads of fun. Got to hangout wit my siblings till late at nite (they used me as an excuse to skip a few classes :P) talking abt silly stuff n laughing at evrything n evrybody who was unfortunate euff to b mentioned in our conversations. Even my mum joined in n honestly speaking Ive never had so much fun being wit d family like that ever… Maybe its cos Ive never had the chance to really spend quality time with them since Ive been away all this while. It also made me realise how much they’ve grown up! I got to see who they really were n what makes me even more happy is they see me as a friend too n not jus as a big bro. Im glad to see they r both on the right track in life n their studies n Im very sure my parents are too. No chance watsoever the kids r gona end up like their big bro (si Chani) n thats such a relief. To those who kno wat Ive been up to in my life u kno wat Im talking abt heheh. Ive been back in kk for only 4days n already I miss them… House jus seems so quiet w/out them around, now its jus me n my li’l bro. In kl it was always noisy especially since my bro likes to tease my sis n they always end up arguing abt silly stuff n it was delightfully funny for me to see all that.

Then I got to meet up wit sum old friends (well one is old, the rest of us were younger :P) n my cuz on wednesday nite n we had a blast catching up n acting stupid jus like the good old days… Wasnt the best of nites to party (the rest had to work the next day) but still we had great fun. Sorry if i made u all go to work looking like zombies! hahah Guess Im blessed to have loads of wierd n wonderful friends in my life.

2moro I go to miri to accompany my aunt to her court hearing. Since Im gona b doing law it’d b an interesting experience watchin one dickhead lawyer arguing wit another dickhead lawyer… Im not against lawyers, jus the idiots I’ll be seeing during the hearing. hehe N i seriously hope the people my aunt is up against will get to read this cos "I think u all are a bunch of greedy, egoistic, ignorant, unethical n uneducated bunch of pricks"…. so sue me!

Guess its time for me to sign off, before I get more pissed off. heheh I’ll b back in kk by friday nite n maybe I’ll drop by here to update u on wat went on during my ‘trip’. Till then have a good one guys!

p/s: I wont be a dickhead lawyer… Honest! heheh

Hello once again friends… Been gone quite awhile now I suppose but I’ve a reason for that. 

Ive been in kl for d past few days,friday to be exact, to attend my sisters’ konvo. She got her Diploma in Architechtural science and I cudnt be more proud n happy to see that she’s doing very well in her studies. Cant say the same for me tho but Im getting there hehe. It was a grand celebration with performances from the students and a very partylike atmosphere, which is very much unlike other graduation ceremonies where evrything is so ‘proper’ n dull. Plus it was interesting for me to see plenty of beautiful ladies, students of  course, walking around and looking hot. hoo-yah!

The ceremony lasted for 4  loooong hrs and ended jus when I was abt ready to lose my mind n pull out my uzi n shoot everybody in the hall, cept my sis n family of course. So praise the lord for having mercy on the other people in there.

What my mates wud find really curious is the fact that I didnt go anywhere (read:clubbing) during the weekends. Even before I left for kl I already had sum frens calling me up inviting me to go partying with them! I arrived in kl sumtime around 10pm n as soon as I switched on my mobile I got msgs frm another group of frens telling me to give em a buzz when I reached kl n they too tried real hard to get me to go out. Even enticing me with korean n local ladies to be my ‘date’. Seriously, I was such a dick to turn that down but as I said…I was tired.

Saturday noon was the grad ceremonies and by the time me n d family got home it was almost 9pm and again I thot abt going out wit my frens but it had been a really long day for me… I passed out by 11pm. I think my parents conspired to get me really tired so as to make me lazy enuff to wana go out. At least thats wat I think… For those who kno me, wud I turn down partying in kl voluntarily?? Exactly… So u c, Im not far off wit my conspiracy theory rite? heheh

My dad n li’l bro left for kk sumtime around 430pm today but before that they dragged me out of bed to go shop wit them n boy can they really shop! My parents left for klcc around 11am and me n my siblings joined them a couple of hours later. By 5pm I was well n truly out of the game, my feet were aching n my head was spinning but mum n the gals seemed to have only gotten warmed up! I left for home around 530 took a shower n passed out. Mum n d gals came home at 830pm still looking bright n fresh in comparison to the guys (me n me bro) who looked like bags of shite slumped on the sofa sleeping in positions that wudve been deemed obscene n inappropriate for family viewing.

My mums magic question when i woke up was "U not goin out wit ur frens?" yea rite mum!  rub it in… heheh I kno I missed partying this weekend!

So here I am pouring my aching heart out to u guys abt how much it sucked missing d party scene here… It was d bloody weekends mind u. Ive got 5 more days to go here and nobody said I cant party on weekdays, cept that I mite have to go alone. Thats gona suck… Oh well.

Im gona go get sum sleep n recharge my batts… till nx time, hope u guys had a good weekend. See ya!

p/s: Worry not Big Bro Fez, Friday aint that far off… Another boys nite out on the cards I foresee, maybe this time wit more ladies in d pic? hahah

It’s 3am and I just finished watching ‘Click’…. again….And it never fails to make me think abt wat each n evryone of us shud hold dearest to our hearts, family.

Just a quick note to all my friends out there who havent watched it yet, I highly recommend that u do so as soon as possible. Its y I love Adam Sandler movies as he gives u the laughs and at the same time messages abt things in life that we take for granted.

In the case of the movie its abt neglecting family for work but I’m thinking sumthing that the movie did NOT highlite…

Do remember guys n gals… family always comes first. Never take them for granted and love them with all your heart no matter what. Family values are sumthing that we shud never compromise for watever reason u can think of. It worries me that the family concept nowadays isnt wat it used to be anymore. The most glaring faults that I see is the lack of respect a youngster has for his/her elders and especially family arguing and fcuking eachother up over money and property. That my dear friends is just FCUKED UP! I apologise to those who are experiencing such a thing and I understand how u feel but I’m jus speaking my mind and even you would be hardpressed to disagree with me how fcuked up it is rite?

Love your parents, siblings, grandparents, uncles, aunt’s and cousins even if they dont return that love, stop thinking "y shud I bother if they dont bother", at least ur doing your part and sooner or later, godwilling, they will see their faults and mend their ways. And if they dont, well too bad for them for not having a conscience. Think of others first, have mutual respect and be really sincere as I believe these are the essentials for strong family ties. This will obviously benefit the family n society as a whole as well.Too often evrybody else only wants to think of themselves first and that just wont work no matter what bullshit they come up with to justify being a selfish prick.

Maybe the modern world has taught us to be selfish to succeed but why succeed alone when we can do it together… as a family… and that can also be applied amongst friends. I kno sum ppl will say to help others u must help urself first, which is true to an extent, but how often do ppl hold on to their words to help others once they have succeeded?  To those who did hold on to their words, bravo!

But visualise wat it wud be like if each and every single family member plays his/her role and practices the essentials as I mentioned beforehand… and with gods blessings….. think abt the possibilities. We can all be one BIG happy family.

Naive thinking? Wishful thinking? It’ll never work? I thot of all that and we’ll never kno until we try… Wat have we got to lose by trying rite? It doesnt cost a goddamn sen anyways, all that is required is a liitle humility, collective effort n love.

Before this turns out to be a political piece I better hit the sack. I can go on n on but Im kinda sleepy so till then, spread the word my dear friends… Family comes first!

p/s: whoever wud of thot I cud come up with stuff like this at 3am? I certainly did’nt… heheh nite2

It really pisses me off to c our boys playing so well only to let sum silly mistake n loss of concentration contribute to them being beaten by Singapore in d Tiger cup semis.

All credit to d lads as they played their hearts out but nonetheless they shudve sealed the deal during the first leg in Shah Alam. All due respect to Spore, but we were clearly the better team in both legs but sumhow d players jus cudnt convert that fact into results on d pitch… I hate it when they sit back n start to play like amateurs  after taking the lead. I mean y sit back n relax after scoring jus ONE goal?!? If it was a 3-4 goal advantage then by all means take it easy, even then just a bit. After Spore equalised only then did the d guys startd to play wit a purpose but try as they did they jus cudnt score. The Sporean keeper was obviously uncomfy when it came to low shots, fumbling more than couple o shots, but we never did exploit that weakness and there was no follow up to stab d ball home. And its obvious we desperately need more quality strikers n midfielders.

Im quite pleased by the standard of play shown by our lads but they have lotsa room for improvment n by all means they really shud. We seem to not b able to hold the ball under pressure n its ridiculous n demoralising for the defence who worked super hard to gain control of the ball only for the guys upfront to lose it back to the lions. We gave d Sporeans too much space n time to think n gain momentum n that proved costly. Y didnt we play like we did in Shah Alam where d Sporeans were under severe pressure frm our players… we didnt give them any space to move n think. That drove them crazy n u can see how demoralised d Sporeans got by being unable to hold on to the ball n dictate the flow of the game.

Our players really need to understand that its pedal to the metal for the whole 90mins n no letting up until the final whistle, they hv proven their fitness physically but mentally they werent really there… yet. Maybe we were being overcautious by sitting back n trying to defend a one goal advantage but we gotta take risks sumtimes, we were being careful n still we got screwed rite? It cudve been a diffrent story if we didnt let our nearest neighbor gain their momentum that ultimately led to them equalising. We cudve been in the finals… cudve.

Watever it is I salute the team for their efforts and I’ll still back them up no matter wat, better luck nx time and for the love of god start getting better!! To d Sporeans, a big congrats!

p/s: U guys were lucky to win hahahah

Im back again but I wnt b bloggin much this time, jus bringing ur attention to sum friends of mine who commented on my first blog report. Looks like Im up against a legion of hardcore Liverpool n Man U fans who take great pleasure in takin d piss abt my teams current form… n even worse those rich fuc#$s at Chelsea dnt seem to be doing things to help me out! heheh Nevertheless Ive been a Chelsea fan since 94 so at least they cant accuse me of being ‘persuaded’ by Romans billions. I supported Chelsea when they still sucked and FYI before 94 I was a Liverpool supporter but only cos my parents supported them frm the days of John Barnes, Ian Rush n Peter Beardsley I think. And the shorts they wore during those days is a bloody embarrassment to guys all over the world! Who’d b comfortable stretching for a ball or making a tackle with yer balls hanging out? Wtf rite? Anyways, Im gona go have dinner n hang out wit my mates at the usual spot. Hope this time there wont b any fight club event tonite. Till then… Big Bro Fez, Faizzul n Ani- Chelsea will win all 4 titles this season n ur teams suck! hahaha Cheers matey!

Seems like everybody has a blog or is gonna start one or is already blogging away… mite as well jump on d bandwagon n c wat its like huh? Obviously my first time so be gentle people.

What Im supposed to jot down here I have no idea, maybe I can start with wat I did last weekend. Saturday nite… Chelsea lost to Liverpool 0-2 n I was on a serious down. All credit to d reds n  Chelsea deserved to lose playing like that. Anyways I invited the guys to chill n chat at blunote jus to take my mind of the game. Arrived at 1030 n was kinda surprised to see the place seriously packed… I mean this place has a rep for being quiet n unhappening but sum bday party was in full swing, which explains d place being packed. Soon after the lads come by n we start sum serious piss taking amongst eachother with me getting the worst of it. Even a fren who cudnt make it to blunote was nice enuf to txt me apologising that his team beat mine… the bastard! After a lot of "Chelsea sucks" n " Sorry chan, chelsea werent good enuff" , I noticed the bday group gathering around n I immediately knew there was gona b trouble eventho others were still oblivious to it. True to my instincts a brawl erupted n bloody hell was it cool! Glasses, mugs flying…. bottles smashed and gals screaming…. scuffles here n there n blood dripping evrywhere. Must have a lasted a good 10 minutes before they proceeded to take d fight outside the club n after another 10-20 mins or so of brawling n screaming the fight club ended, evryone of em left n then there was silence…

Me n d guys walked back inside to see the place trashed n in a mess. The cleanup crew started doing wat they needed to do n the dj had enuff of a sense of humor to play sexual healing by Marvin Gaye, I mean after this fuckd up incident all of us were in need of sum sexual healing I guess hehe. We jus switched tables n continued to chill watching the odd ppl or two walking around the deserted club. Mind u its was only 1240pm n u can imagine how much that sucked.

A few ppl came over to chat n ask wat happened n were all pissed at the fight club group for spoiling their nite… I said "look at the bright side buddy, at least we have the place to ourselves now" n they jus laughed n started playing pool or wander around again. A few more mates came by and we jus sat there n chatted abt d incident till d place closed down. Wat was supposed to be a nite to drown my sorrows was made worse by the brawl, was fun to watch I hv to say, at the end I guess I did have sort of a good time after all.  Till nx time guys… adios!